I'll give you whats for!!

10:37PM - I Implore

The key is there, do not take haste.
Stray away from you’re daily place.
Open it please, I do implore.
See what’s beyond the cellar door.

8:03PM

from a while ago...


Broken heart
Broken home
Broken girl
Broken down

But for what, a sisters gruesome temper?
Bringing eyes to break, to drown, to crumble.
Not even the tendrils of love bind you.
When love is the color, the light of life,
Your life becomes darkened just black and white.
By candle light you read your desires,
Quiet, as loud as the darkness around.
My dear let me bring you all my candles.
My paint as well, until your eyes do heal.
Take mine, take mine and be broken no more.
Take my color, my life, my light, my love.
Take my hand, to hold till the end of time.
Take comfort in my arms as eyes break down.
My dear mostly just take my heart, take me.
To put the shine back in your angel eyes.
So take it all and be broken no more.
Take me, take mine, and take all that there is.

9:02AM

Oh how I am thankful. I am thankful of course for good health, good home, good parents, good brother and sister. I am also thankful for having the ability not to step on a girls toes while danceing. I am thankful for my real friends, that actually know me and care about me. Im extreamly thankful for the friends that I have never met. I am thankful for candy, and my peper, and my chloe, morgan, and of course little christina who isnt born yet (my nieces). Out of all my family am mostly thankful for getting to know Richard my favorite person in the world. Im thankful that i get to go to the lions game. And I am thankful for the people helping me with my ticket. I am thankful for everyone that plays jazz with me combo kids can sometimes be the best like ben and rich and chris... sometimes knope but he did invite thousands to that party... but i like him none the less.

But most of all i am thankful for my strong relationship with my lord.

6:55PM

talked to my friends dad, he might be able to help with the ticket.

talked to my moms friend he said he thinks he will be able to get it so i just pay a huge fine and dont lose my license..


Im hoping for the best.


I cant lose my license that would be horrible, no road trip!

ahhh

Current mood: intensly hoping for goodness..

8:31PM

so i decided this summer im going to go on a road trip to abq new mexico see some of my family.

on the way when i want to eat ill just pull over at a rest stop and play my saxophone for money. playing on the street always helps you reandomly figure out songs people know so you get paid. Im so excited, if i end up not being able to go i will be completly devistated.

Current mood: excited

Current music: lots of mingus

3:39AM

Not a day goes by where my mind doesn't change. From one to the next, to the next, to the next but truly I cant stay a week with out retreating home, to what I know, what I miss, and what I love. It always goes back to a one point, to when i was happiest. I wish i was there, oh how I wish I was there. To now go back with all I know and knowing her would be more then perfect. Ideas of how foolish i truly must be, how hopeful wishing wont help me here, and the idea that I really mean it this time. Songs i write... now for her, each solo I play, every ballad for her. She motivates me in music, which is helpful, just i wish she could motivate my emotions with a glimpse of her, its all I truly want.


Every word meant, no regrets, no regretted promises, must try to do all that I say I will.

Current mood: hopeful/determined

10:49PM

im not emo...



just i miss a good cry.

1:54AM

LIVE AT THE BLUE NOTE! Come see me play with the rest of the guys you might have seen at the senor show. 8 to 11 come anytime. contact me for info.

2:44AM

ambulance_moon... let the journy continue..</span>

8:26PM

i think this journal has been her for to long i think its pourpose is gone...

thats the way it rolls somtimes... just got to let go...

after all i gave it whats for......

::hits chest twice kisses fist points hand in your direction with a sideways peace sign::

..peace...

7:18PM

horn toad...

like the dickons...

Current mood: curiously erotic,,/intense

8:03PM

wtf


i fucking hate halloween now

6:26PM

its a nightmare... without my...

9:53PM

life would be perfect if all i had to think about was her

shes all i need

Current mood: guilty

8:02PM

To all you fucking bitches that dont like my girl friend:

You can go fuck yourselfs.

Quit give her dirty or she and stephine the adopted puerto rican will just have good O'l time and kick your asses.  Please dont think im joking cus i would hate for anyone to get hurt. 

Perhaps if you dont stop i will pee on you... your choice... who knows maybe you bitches like golden showers.

Current mood: INTENSE

Current music: the voice of the adopted puerto rican

7:33PM - steph... the copeland

This entry is dedicated to.. none other than the fantastic....

                STEPHANIE AEXANDRA!!

                WHAT A MAC!!!!

Current mood: relieved and relaxed

Current music: just the sound of a funny liquid going into my toliet

9:59PM

i hate this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
braue come back to me!@2@!!! you were awesome come back!!
braue is now the drirector at crary cus g quit.. and that means miss o is the driector at mott. braue i love you!!!!! come back please i'll do anything!!!

i was told this a few mins ago by aron im about to cry...


why is life so gay

1:03AM

with my wishful thinking i could never wish for more.

1:53AM - dun dun dun...

A broken heart, from love and temptation.
A world of stars with no constellations.
A burning home, with shadows on the walls.
A crying hope for love to end it all.

Let me color in your world, and make the rain fall.
Sprinkle paint across the canvas of your hearts walls.
Pinks and reds, now blues and yellows.
The fragrance of a rose in every hello.

No longer will light be evanescence.
With a flick of a switch in your presence.
Life will be a dream, and a world of love.
So let me color your world, let us rise above.

11:02PM

what was i waiting for..?